My first step out of legalism was being introduced to a different God.

Some who read my blog are still in the RP church and some have left. I left the RP church for somewhat selfish reasons. I had this thought that I had gifts to be used for the church, but the RP church steadfastly rejected everything I had to offer. I wanted to find a church where people felt freedom to express their joy in worship and where leadership wasn't a group of people who had to maintain their superiority over the commoners.

What I found was far more. Yes, I found a group of people who expressed freedom and joy in worship, but I was introduced to a different God. It took me leaving Psalmody to find that the Psalms, for RPs seem to be checking some sort of box. How does David get to complain to God when we must approach God with our prayers arranged? How does David get to say that God has forsaken and abandoned him when RPs would be afraid of being struck by lightning at such heresy?

My first brush with the God who is willing to hear my complaints was a sermon series on Ruth. The pastor talked about how Naomi modeled strong spirituality when she acknowledged her bitterness and brought it before God. That was not what I heard from RP pulpits. Those pastors said that Naomi was spiritually weak and on the verge of apostasy because she was bitter. Over time, I learned of a God who wasn't an iron-fisted narcissist, smiting those who dared bring petty grievances and low-minded complaints before his holy, royal throne. I learned of a God who wanted to be near us when we were happy, near us when we were sad and near us when we were so angry we wanted to punch a hole in a wall. And not just about the "stuff", but even when we were angry or happy or said with HIM!

Honestly, my first response was anger. I was angry that he allowed me to grow up in a church and home that abused me in his name. I was angry that my family and friends willingly chose to be domineered by church leaders to keep their relationships and worship style. I was sad that there was a huge gulf between the people I grew up with and those I met through the church that will probably never be fixed in this life.

Over time, though, I realized how much this hateful caricature of God is so central to abusive and narcissistic Christianity. Our leaders cannot be compassionate because their God is not compassionate. Our leaders cannot overlook petty grievances because their God cannot overlook petty grievances. They cannot join hands with other Christians who see things even slightly differently because their God cannot overlook even the slightest error. It also affects how RPs approach doctrine. In a sense, because God is narcissistic and abusive, there is the opposite consideration than Ockham's razor. Instead of the simplest explanation being the correct one, it's more like the explanation that is the biggest stretch ends up being the one the theologians latch onto. For example, it isn't enough to to agree on the essentials of communion. First, the elements must be scrutinized. Is non-fermented grape juice really obeying God? What about leavened bread? Then the participants must be divided. Is it available to all Christians or only NAPARC members? Finally, even the circumstances become elements. Is it okay for members to be served in their pews or must they come to a table? This might be passed off as "best practice", but those who have taken stands on the various issues are really saying that other practice is tainted by disobedience and bearing some amount of brow furrowing by our creator. Is that really the God we serve? The God of furrowed brows? The Father I serve is the one who ran to me when I was far off and welcomed me back as a son even though I smelled of pig manure. The RP God would never do that. Only the pure can come, and even then, one drop of unfermented wine is enough to be rejected.

I can't say that my relationship with God the Father has been miraculously fixed, but I at least conceptually understand that he is not the abusive father the RP church portrayed him to be. I can look to Jesus and see that Jesus doesn't act in the way that the RP God acts, and if Jesus is in perfect harmony with the Father, how could he act in opposition? If Jesus touches the unclean, how does the Father reject them? If Jesus defends the adulteress, how does the Father condemn her? It doesn't make sense! A house divided against itself cannot stand.

Said plainly, Jesus did not act the way God the Father is portrayed by RPs. When Jesus talks about the Father, he combines justice with compassion and mercy. The God of the Sabbath does not hold the Regulative Principle above the disciples' need to eat. Jesus shows warmth to those who are given the cold shoulder in society, and he is often cold towards those who are honored.

How to Human

Hi all! Over the weekend, I read a completely different book, How to Human by Carlos Whittaker. It's a secular book, of sorts, but Carlos is unabashedly Christian and relates a lot of his lessons back to who Jesus was and Christian principles.

It was a very encouraging book and he helpfully talks about some of what I think have become Evangelical hangups. I'll highlight a few that hit me:

1. Seeing someone / engaging with someone does not mean that we agree with them. I was in a men's study recently, and one of the leader's thought-provoking questions was, "A gay co-worker invites you to his same-sex wedding. Do you go or not? Why?" The leader's view was that participation was approval.

Whittaker uses the example of Phillip and the Ethiopian eunuch to point out the lesson that we can and should engage with people who have unknown or even known-to-be-different views. 

There will be some chariots that you won't agree with a single bumper sticker those chariots have on them. You may agree with everything those chariots stand for. That's great. I would hope that you have strong convictions. But, don't for a second think that disqualifies you from getting in the chariot. You are getting in the chariot to let the person in it know that you see them, not that you agree with them. (p. 93)

I see this reflected in Jesus's interactions with people, which Carlos points out in other chapters. He touched the leper. He allowed a woman of ill repute (according to the Pharisees) to anoint him with perfume. He stood by the woman caught in adultery. These were all situations where the religious leaders were pointedly declaring that engagement with the sinful was approval of sin, but Jesus disagreed.

2. Our work vs. the work of the Holy Spirit. This was one of the first lessons I learned after leaving the RP church, and definitely not early enough as I burned some friendships and strained family relationships trying to do that work in them.

Because I'm a follower of Jesus, it's my responsibility to ferociously pour His love on my friends and my foes. It's not my responsibility to convict them. That is the role of the Holy Spirit. Comment-section debates won't convince a heart to change. Thirty-second video clips where your side "destroys" the other team won't convince a heart to change. Those may make us feel better but won't ever move their hearts toward change. So, is that love? Does it bring joy? Encourage peace? Go through that list of the fruit of the Spirit from Galatians and compare it to how we so often are. Does it line up? Probably not. Not like it should.

We must love those we disagree with in order to let them know they matter. That they are seen. That's the actual goal. That's what will help us all human better. That's why when you see a "Christian" online calling other humans names meant to wound them, it should make you cringe -- even if you agree with their point of view. (And if it doesn't make you cringe, there are deeper problems.) Now, just because it's the Holy Spirit's role to convict doesn't mean we don't have convictions. It just means that when we take on His role ourselves, with our human nature, it's far easier to fall into the trap of demeaning someone made in the image of God by throwing cheap and easy insults. (pp. 203-204)

Coming out of a church tradition where people took upon themselves (cough 'apologetics') the role of the Holy Spirit, it was easy to fall into the trap of being similarly, I suppose, anti-apologetic. So I spent my first few months as an ex-RP politely(?) bashing everything I found objectionable. It took so much trauma to get myself to the point where I could walk out that I needed a way to process that trauma, and, unfortunately, I didn't have a counselor to dump that on. I ended up processing my RP trauma on my RP friends, who unchecked that box (friend, not RP).

3. Study and Follow Jesus. It might seem trite, but I appreciate that Carlos, who points out that he dropped out of college and has no seminary training, over and over shows us a simple and clear understanding of who Jesus was and what he was here for. I think we Reformed Evangelicals have figured out how to reimage Jesus into what we want, not who he is. Jesus turned his cheek, but really... turning our cheek is weakness. Jesus stood by the adulterer, but really... we should shame adulterers. Jesus welcomed and cherished children, but really... we should parentify and adultify them as soon as possible so they can be useful, and before then, ignore them.

4. Be, See, Free. Maybe this is just a sales pitch, but these are the major headings of the books. How do we re-acquaint ourselves with what it means to be human? How do we see the humanity in others beyond stereotypes and biases? How do we use our humanity and our gifts to free others from bondage (more social justice than proselytizing)?

It's difficult because Whittaker is probably the most extroverted person I've ever read, and as a massive introvert, it's hard to imagine just going up to someone in the ways he does. He asked if he could livestream a hotel housekeeper singing her heart out, and asked a street musician if he could film him, so that others could enjoy their gifts. But, I definitely appreciate his love for people and his willingness to engage with them in a way that demonstrates that they are seen and loved.

Can we stop saying that women want to be objectified and raped?

 I don't understand why Doug Wilson is still considered relevant within Reformed circles, but the echoes of what he says still resonate in articles I've read. Keep in mind that Wilson's "Federal Vision" theology has been declared heretical (i.e. people who subscribe to FV cannot simultaneously hold the early creeds that defined Christianity)

RPs should also understand that Wilson has called them 'haters of the Word of God':

the drums of war were being beaten by the abolitionists, [RPCNA is historically abolitionist] who were in turn driven by a zealous hatred of the Word of God.

Maybe that line of Wilson's reasoning hasn't been spread throughout western Evangelicalism, but this line certainly has:

There are at least three things to be taken away from this. The first is that Paul is not offering Christian sexlessness over against pagan sexuality. He says that Christians must learn how to possess their own bodies in this way, not in that way. The way we are to avoid is the sexuality of atheism.

Second, we are to know what we are rejecting—i.e. the passion of lust as exhibited by those who do not know God. That means we need to know the contrast. Now the world’s approach to sex is demented, but it is a demented caricature of certain creational realities. This means that men and women are convex and concave in their desires. Men want to possess and women want to be possessed. Men want to want and women want to be wanted. Men want baubles and women want to be baubles.

The third point is that to reject God’s pattern here is not to despise men, but rather to despise God. You might defraud your brother in this, but it God you are despising. (source)

Also:

When we quarrel with the way the world is, we find that the world has ways of getting back at us. In other words, however we try, the sexual act cannot be made into an egalitarian pleasuring party. A man penetrates, conquers, colonizes, plants. A woman receives, surrenders, accepts. This is of course offensive to all egalitarians, and so our culture has rebelled against the concept of authority and submission in marriage. This means that we have sought to suppress the concepts of authority and submission as they relate to the marriage bed.

But we cannot make gravity disappear just because we dislike it, and in the same way we find that our banished authority and submission comes back to us in pathological forms. This is what lies behind sexual "bondage and submission games," along with very common rape fantasies. Men dream of being rapists, and women find themselves wistfully reading novels in which someone ravishes the "soon to be made willing" heroine. (source)

Part of understanding our culture within a Christian worldview is understanding that creation has been subjected to corruption and futility. Just because my natural response to offense is to get revenge doesn't make revenge right. Revenge is not gravity in the sense that God built revenge into the fabric of his good creation. Justice, yes, but revenge is potentially a sinful distortion of justice.

In the same way, even if I concede that Wilson's argument correctly acknowledges the current state of affairs, he is extrapolating the heart of God from the created reality. It's hard to make a parallel argument to point out the logical flaws, but it would go something like this:

Godly discipline MUST be spanking. We can't pretend that instruction, natural consequences, or other discipline techniques can possibly work, because children self-discipline through self-harm - hair pulling, cutting, banging their head against a wall. Men dream of being violent against their children, and children read books where the hero learns resilience through abusive parenting.

The fallacy in both arguments is first assuming that what we desire in entertainment has some underlying wholesome basis. Do people watch MMA because some aspect of MMA is holy and good? I doubt it. Wilson would likely this by arguing Total Depravity, but it's core to his argument. Second does the fact that women read romance novels involving rape mean that the rape is essential or core to their desires? Not at all! I don't think women read romance novels because they contain rape. That's Wilson reading his own pornified view of women into some statistic. I didn't watch Captain America because I wanted to see a teenage twerp get beaten and abused by his army peers. I watched it because I wanted to see how his true character survived through evil and adversity.  Maybe women read romance novels with rape because they want to see how strong women react to and rise above the evil and adversity. I'm not sure that Wilson is even correct that women are drawn to romance novels where a woman is raped by her future romantic partner. It's very much like him (and James Dobson*, for that matter) to create his theory out of whole cloth by projecting what he wants women to be like into his accounts. I guess one way to promote rape culture is to imagine that women naturally want to be ravaged by some alpha male and then put that to pen and paper with a couple of verses and a pastor's sheepskin to make it appear Biblical and authentic.
(* The oft-repeated idea that men 'need' sex at least every 72 hours has been meticulously traced to a statement James Dobson made, and it appears that his statement had no scientific backing: https://baremarriage.com/2024/03/72-hour-rule-isnt-real-evangelicals-convinced-women-have-sex/)

Wilson's argument is truly evil, though. Women want to be possessed? Really? Women want to be baubles? (i.e. Women want to be objectified) Really?

I think this is in line with his arguments about slavery. Somehow he portrays the slavery of the south as a magnanimous system. Slaves were "taken care of" and owners were good, charitable Christians. That's why they hired taskmasters with whips and raped their slaves, because that's what black people want - to be whipped and raped.

Wilson needs to get his head out of porn and slave rape literature.

Women today operate in a patriarchal culture. That is the point of Genesis 3. "He will rule over you". The male rule in Genesis 3 is not a benevolent rule. We see soon that Lamech takes two wives. Why? Benevolence, or sexual gratification? Thomas Jefferson raped his slaves. Benevolence or sexual gratification? So, the pornified, objectified view of women in our culture is not God-created gravity, but a sinful distortion.

So, how do women respond to this culture? I think there are two basic approaches, fight, or accept and profit. Women who fight this culture have a lifetime of suffering ahead of them. Aimee Byrd and Beth Moore come to mind. These women at first, accepted the patriarchal Evangelical culture, but in their journey at some point, they realized that Evangelical patriarchy was sinful and fought it. They were abused and sidelined by their churches. The other approach is what I would call the cheerleader approach. Women accept some level of the pornified culture because they can use it to their advantage. I know cheerleaders, and they see cheerleading as a sport, just like band members see marching band as a way to compete in music. However, society looks at a football game, and the cheerleaders and band are just a side-show to the important thing, which is a competition of alpha males.

Madonna / Britney Spears / Lady Gaga also are figureheads for this approach. In their prime, they encouraged and profited from a pornified view of women. I doubt these women wanted to be raped. This was not fantasy of theirs, but a way to make a good living off of patriarchy. Porn stars are the same. I doubt their hearts desire is to engage in sex acts so that men can gratify themselves, but they can profit from the sinful desire of men.

Circling back to Wilson, he paints a sickening view of God, and those who want to portray women in the same light also paint a sickening view of God. Women don't want men to "rule over" them. Male rule is not the created order, but a result of the Fall. God does not respect patriarchy. If God respected patriarchy, then why did God talk with Manoah's wife first before Manoah, and why did Gabriel talk with Mary first before Joseph?

Narcissism and Legalism - why they are so hard to differentiate in religious systems

A recent post reminded me how much legalistic religious systems struggle with spiritual abusers and other narcissists. He claims that they are "cut from the same cloth" and offers how they are similar.

Similar roots of legalism and narcissism

The root of narcissism seems to come down to striving to maintain a 'perfect' external image, but being caught in a shame loop of the internal life not matching that image. Narcissists will first try to hide the shame, but when caught, they may externalize that internal shame by deflecting it towards others. "I wouldn't have raged if you hadn't..." or "You didn't explain why I needed to be home on time and that's why I went partying with my friends instead of visiting with your parents." Narcissists also poison any potential allies of those they are abusing so that an abused wife or child won't be believed if they seek help. "Oh, your father warned me that you like to make up malicious lies about him."

In the same way, legalistic church systems have to deal with the discrepancy between the aura of perfection and what actually happens within the doors. The celebrity pastor who is loved by all might be sending inappropriate texts to women in his congregation. The church is then caught with internal "shame" in the same way. Maybe they try to silence women who come forward by accusing them of gossip, or calling them a tool of Satan to destroy the pastor's ministry. If these women go to the press, again, they are labeled tools of Satan. The church is told that Satan is attacking the pastor, and DARVO is used as a tool to protect the poor minister.

Within a legalistic system, even accusations of sin take on a life of their own for similar reasons. Each individual wants to appear righteous. Some have described it as a "mask" that we wear. When someone is confronted with the shame of some sin, the same defense mechanisms can come into play. Maybe we deny it, or maybe we deflect it by charging other people of worse sins.

The post, and other articles I've read, point to the solution. First of all, legalistic systems arise because we judge by some relativistic standard. We want our sins to be no big deal and others' sins to be serious and significant. Yet, we know that all sin is deserving of condemnation, AND, we know that all sin can be forgiven and restored through Jesus. In our legalistic systems, we refuse to see people how Jesus sees them and instead we want to apply essentially the ridiculous standard that "us" is better than "them" and "might makes right" - those in spiritual authority should be judged less harshly due to their position.

Instead of inviting real people and their real problems to church, we say, "Welcome to the RPCNA, here's your mask! If you take the mask off we will reject you!"

Attracting spiritually abusive members and leaders

A legalist or narcissist walks into a legalistic church and instantly recognizes the system in play. Maybe they have different approaches. The narcissist wants to use the legalistic system to protect himself from scrutiny, while the legalist just recognizes that they can put on the same old mask and stay in comfort.

This is troubling because the legalistic system is already designed to protect the wolves. Legalistic churches will clamp down on any truth-telling, calling it gossip. Then, because "sin" is such an offensive thing to accuse someone of, there will be immediate scrutinizing of any accusations. The wolves know that they just have to play the game for a little while to get on the session, and then the boundless resources of the church will circle round to protect them.

It's easy to imagine a situation like Keith Magill. First, he illegally hid sexual abuse committed by a member by failing to call CPS and not telling other session members. When this is uncovered, no apparent action is taken against him, other than a letter from his former church. Then he is part of the coverup. And I say coverup because in Indiana a pastor is required to IMMEDIATELY inform CPS of suspected abuse. A school principal's conviction was upheld when he delayed reporting by four hours - https://www.in.gov/icsb/files/Duty-to-Report.pdf It's not surprising in a legalistic and narcissistic religious system to see person after person following the DARVO process to protect the powerful and portray whistleblowers and concerned members as tools of Satan.

Gossip is not "negative stories"

 My working definition of gossip is "telling someone else's story without permission." This is a powerful definition for two reasons. First, it means that telling someone else's good news without permission is still gossip. We have experienced multiple instances where someone had good news, like a pregnancy, an engagement, or even a new job. Told their closest friends and family and then, before they could tell others, the news spread like wildfire and they were heartbroken. Some in our family wisely say something like, "We have this news. Please don't share this outside the family until we can tell the church on Sunday."

On the flip side, accusations of "tattling" are often confusing and destructive. If a kid gets bullied in school and goes to the teacher, many teachers will accuse the kid of tattling. I think this accusation is more of an "I don't want to deal with this, go away" shaming and silencing technique. If Johnny brings a knife to school, and Billy tells the teacher, is this somehow sinful?

I heard this became an issue for an RPCNA church. Members were talking to their elders about experiences they had with a leader. The elders decided that "negative stories" about leaders was just gossip, so they mostly ignored the stories. Members were leaving and the session kept hearing the same so-called "gossip".

At some point, the elders had this revelation. If a bunch of people are telling us the same thing about a leader, then maybe the problem is with the leader and not the members. Seemingly, they are still struggling with the "gossip" of the matter, but they really should not be.

That's why churches need to have good definitions. If a pastor punches me and I tell an elder, that's not gossip. If a pastor punches me and I tell another member. That's not gossip.

I can hear the counterpoint, and I've heard it in sermons. What if the member takes some sin to anyone in the congregation that will listen? It's still not gossip. Maybe it's overreacting, but in today's church, perhaps overreacting is better than silencing.

• What about the little kid who is asked to get in the car of some random church member? Is it gossip to tell someone?
• What about the teenage girl who was touched inappropriately? Gossip?
• What about someone who is told by an individual elder that the session is upset with him? Gossip?

I keep coming back to this thought. What is the point of damage control when everything the church tries to cover up will be exposed on judgment day? It suggests to me that these people are less concerned about judgment day and more concerned about their reputation in the world.

** EDIT **

I also want to make a point about actions. Perhaps what you do in a session with a medical practitioner or with an attorney is protected by privacy rights. When I act externally, those actions are not protected by privacy, and often not even in my own home - if I'm acting out against my children or spouse.

So, if I verbally abuse someone. I have no right to silence that someone from telling anyone they choose. Neither do I think the church has the right to silence them. The Bible may ask them to question their motive. Are they telling someone to seek help, are they telling someone to seek justice, or are telling someone as a form of retaliation and escalation. I think we need wisdom to discern, but the church should certainly not quash any person talking about harm done to them as some sort of malicious gossip.

This sort of silencing comes from the church wanting to be a whitewashed tomb and not a place of justice. If I abuse someone, the church listens to that someone, and the church brings justice - either repentenance and reconciliation or discipline on me, then the entire story is a story of justice. Why would the church not want to demonstrate justice? Because justice is also painful and messy. So, the church chooses to whitewash the abuse by re-victimizing the abused into silence. Now, however, the church has something to hide - the tomb - evidence that they care more about reputation than justice and they would rather be lazy than fight.

Sermon Review: Psalm 109 -> authoritarian spiritual abuse

Southside RPCNA is where Ben Manring questioned the qualifications of an elder candidate. This past Sunday (6/17), Pastor David Hanson preached a sermon on Psalm 109. It shocks me that a pastor can read exactly the opposite into a passage of scripture than what seems to be the intent, but, when it comes to taking pains to justify spiritual abuse, even the Bible takes the back seat.

I quote this Psalm in its entirety because you will need to read and re-read it to remove the spell of cognitive dissonance that Pastor Hanson wants to cast over his members and listeners.

Psalm 109 (NASB)

O God of my praise,
Do not be silent!
For they have opened the wicked and deceitful mouth against me;
They have spoken against me with a lying tongue.
They have also surrounded me with words of hatred,
And fought against me without cause.
In return for my love they act as my accusers;
But I am in prayer.
Thus they have repaid me evil for good
And hatred for my love.

Appoint a wicked man over him,
And let an accuser stand at his right hand.
When he is judged, let him come forth guilty,
And let his prayer become sin.
Let his days be few;
Let another take his office.
Let his children be fatherless
And his wife a widow.
Let his children wander about and beg;
And let them seek sustenance far from their ruined homes.
Let the creditor seize all that he has,
And let strangers plunder the product of his labor.
Let there be none to extend lovingkindness to him,
Nor any to be gracious to his fatherless children.
Let his posterity be cut off;
In a following generation let their name be blotted out.

Let the iniquity of his fathers be remembered before the Lord,
And do not let the sin of his mother be blotted out.
Let them be before the Lord continually,
That He may cut off their memory from the earth;
Because he did not remember to show lovingkindness,
But persecuted the afflicted and needy man,
And the despondent in heart, to put them to death.
He also loved cursing, so it came to him;
And he did not delight in blessing, so it was far from him.
But he clothed himself with cursing as with his garment,
And it entered into his body like water
And like oil into his bones.
Let it be to him as a garment with which he covers himself,
And for a belt with which he constantly girds himself.
Let this be the reward of my accusers from the Lord,
And of those who speak evil against my soul.

But You, O God, the Lord, deal kindly with me for Your name’s sake;
Because Your lovingkindness is good, deliver me;
For I am afflicted and needy,
And my heart is wounded within me.
I am passing like a shadow when it lengthens;
I am shaken off like the locust.
My knees are weak from fasting,
And my flesh has grown lean, without fatness.
I also have become a reproach to them;
When they see me, they wag their head.

Help me, O Lord my God;
Save me according to Your lovingkindness.
And let them know that this is Your hand;
You, Lord, have done it.
Let them curse, but You bless;
When they arise, they shall be ashamed,
But Your servant shall be glad.
Let my accusers be clothed with dishonor,
And let them cover themselves with their own shame as with a robe.
With my mouth I will give thanks abundantly to the Lord;
And in the midst of many I will praise Him.
For He stands at the right hand of the needy,
To save him from those who judge his soul.

Hanson: Psalm 109 teaches us to distrust ourselves

After claiming that our sense of justice is inherently God-given "he will write the law on our hearts", Hanson then flips the script (is there some Reformed playbook?) and talks  about how our innate desire for justice is somehow evil. "We want to be legislature, judge and executioner." This is a false dichotomy. Our inherent sense of justice is not de facto vigilante justice. This is a horrible caricature, and perhaps it speaks more about the pastors' hearts who preach.

[8:55] Psalm 109 calls you and me actually to a certain distrust of ourselves in these matters and instead to a trust in the righteous courtroom of God. ... And so Psalm 109 is given so that we would not trust our own courtroom, but instead that we would have this model to trust the judge, the perfect judge. 

 [10:17] in verses 1-5 we a call here that entrusting your case means, and begins with, distrusting yourself. [He repeats this for emphasis]

I had to read and re-read verses 1-5 to find this sense of self-doubt. Still can't find it. In fact, Hanson has to conveniently ignore the self-doubt when he points to the ultimate fulfillment in Jesus. [43:00] Does Psalm 109 mean that Jesus distrusted himself? Of course not! So this entire point has to be held in cognitive dissonance. This Psalm is all about self-doubt for us, but not for Jesus.

If Hanson had to honestly engage with this text first from the perspective of Jesus, it would be obvious that he is adding to scripture his own evil desire to manipulate and control through self-doubt.

Hanson: Psalm 109 says our hurt is insignificant to God

[11:55] And notice here that what is described is an extreme evil. That the case that David has to deal with in the courtroom of his brain is not 'you know there was a meeting on Friday at work, and my boss blamed me for keeping the breakroom a mess when in fact it's my coworkers.' And therefore I'm going to pray and sing this way.

This is a tactic, like sin leveling. So, yes, David is angry at being hurt, but David was really hurt. Our little hurts just don't matter like this! The implication is that our little hurts don't matter to God, and if they don't matter to God, they don't matter to the church, and if they don't matter to the church, then you should accept it and move on.  

Hanson: Suck it up or you're sinning

[13:30] And right there in a nutshell, right there in one verse [Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice] Paul has summarized exactly what the courtroom of my brain and your brain says that when you have made all these false, wicked accusations against me. When you've drug my name through the mud, I am free and justified in my bitterness. I am free and justified if I decide to be angry and wrathful and burst out against you. I am free and justified if I choose to gossip against you.

Keeping on the theme of our little trauma being insignificant, Hanson goes on to explain that even if our trauma is big like David's, we still have to essentially suck it up. The quote may sound insignificant, but we have to understand that "anger" and "gossip" are redefined and weaponized in the RPCNA.

Let's say my child is raped by an RP pastor. If I confront the pastor, I'm just being "angry". If I talk to other members about it, I'm "angry" and a "gossip". If I go to the police. "angry". The press, "angry". He says over and over "repay evil with evil", but he never really describes a just process for resolving conflict. In fact, pretty much every approach is poisoned into some form of evil. Not surprising where he decides to take it.

Hanson: Justice is between you and God alone

[17:40] Distrusting your own courtroom and entrusting your case to God means, verse 1, that we come to God alone. Notice David's disposition here. What is the court of appeal? It's not his own court, and it's also not the court of public opinion. Most of us are ethical enough to say that it would be wrong for me to do something malicious in turn. You said something unkind to me, therefore I'm going to race out to the parking lot and key your car. I think most of us are clear that that is not the biblical response. But we will struggle a lot more with you said something unkind to me that is completely out of line and I'm going to make sure that at least six other people in the congregation know about it. But David here takes the matter to the Lord and the Lord alone.

Again, what is potentially a valid response to trauma gets blown out of proportion and turned into some sort of checkbox for wrongs. But, what if I go to a trusted friend and ask for their help in responding? This is a false dichotomy and it's so broad that you could drive a Mack truck through it. What if someone tells me they're going to shoot me as soon as I exit the building? Seriously, don't tell anyone?!

This is the same sort of gaslighting we see time and time again in the RPCNA. The purpose is deliberate. DON'T TRUST YOURSELF. Don't stand up or speak out. Preserve the peace at all costs, even if you drive yourself to a mental breakdown!

Hanson: David isn't asking for specific judgment, just general principles

[25:21] And actually what's happening here in verses 6-20 is that David is just praying God's law back to God. God I am being grossly mistreated here. Here is my case, and by the way, here is what you have promised in your law will happen to those who deal this way. You have outlined that this is your justice.

[33:20] Lord you repay them according to your standard of righteousness, your standard of justice. So entrusting our case to the Lord means not trusting ourselves, first of all, and secondly means trusting God's standard of right and wrong. God's standard of perfect justice.

Hanson completely ignores the language of verses 6-20 and turns it on its head. The "imperative" part of speech means "the form of a verb that is usually used for giving orders". David is saying to God, do this! do this! Yes, David is, in the Spirit prophetically speaking what will happen to his accuser, and what will happen to Judas, but the example here is not a mere recitation of statutory law in the hopes that something will stick.

Hanson's implication is that David is saying, "God, if this is a class 2 felony, then your law says he should get 5-10 years in jail. God, if this is a class 3 misdemeanor, your law says he should be fined up to $500." David is saying, God! I want this guy to be in jail for 10 years!

It's problematic for Hanson to flip the script yet again and say that this David somehow just tossing the offense into the wind and hoping for something to stick. Instead, David, a man after God's own heart, is demanding his rights before God. It's not, "Hey God, it'd be nice if you put him in jail for a few days," but "YOUR LAW says that he gets 10 years, and you'd better get it done or you're not true to your word!"

Hanson: Psalm 109 says we have to hand it all to God because we're depraved

[40:50] Those are reasons why we can say that it is good and appropriate for us to sing and to pray Psalm 109. Psalm 109 removes the court case from my courtroom and says "I know I'm totally depraved. I know I miscarry justice. God, I turn this over to you. It affirms God I'm trusting your law, your rules, your penalties, and not mine."

Hanson: Now forget everything I just preached when it comes to Jesus

[42:40] And they said we know that Psalm 109 applies to us right now, because Psalm 109 is really talking about the approach that Jesus had to the courtroom that really mattered. And it's in Psalm 109 that we read 'let another man take his office' and they identified in a particular way and appropriately so, recorded by the scriptures, that Psalm 109 was talking about the relationship between Jesus and Judas Iscariot. And so Psalm 109, we know, is actually a psalm that would have been on the lips of our savior and that scripture tells us explicitly applies to him.

Obviously, this is where the entire logic of his entire sermon completely unravels into a ball of spaghetti on the floor.

What would Hanson "teach" Jesus by this sermon?

Jesus should distrust himself.

Jesus's hurt is insignificant to the Father

Jesus should "suck it up" when he is wronged

Jesus should never spoken openly about the injustice committed against him

Jesus should "turn it over to God" because he's depraved.

Conclusion: RPCNA preaching turns scripture into spiritual abuse

This sermon is completely typical of what you see. "Exegesis" is merely the pastor putting his own words into the Bible. He cannot possibly understand Psalm 109, because his interpretation of Psalm 109 cannot possibly apply to its ultimate fulfillment in Jesus! And therefore the instruction from his false interpretation cannot apply.

In fact, this is just Hanson dictating his own rules for dealing with persecution in the church.

You're an insignificant worm.

God doesn't care about your little problems.

Whatever emotions you have or justice you desire is inherently wrong.

Shut up about it.

Don't take any action.

Maybe Satan could say it better, but I think Hanson has tried hard.

Synod Ben Manring decision, the Jesus test and standing...

 RPCNA Synod met last week. I was most interested in the Ben Manring case, since it was likely that Synod would kick the can on the many issues coming from GLG, but this required some sort of decision.

Ben Manring was disciplined by his church for e-mailing publicly available information about a potential elder candidate to his congregation. The potential candidate had signed a complaint to Synod in opposition to the handling of the IRPC case. Synod had voted against the complaint and Manring thought that the candidate's disagreement with Synod was material to his qualifications as elder. Such a complaint might be seen as a divisive course.

A little bit of irony here is that Professor JG Vos was credited for single-handedly saving the RPCNA from demise. The mechanism that JG Vos used was mass mailing his complaints to any person who might have any impact on a decision. When a controversial speaker spoke at Geneva chapel, JG Vos transcribed his speech and put it in the mailbox of every faculty member. When the RPCNA was considering women in leadership, Vos wrote a letter and sent it to every session and elder in the RPCNA. As far as I know, no one, especially the conservatives who rule the RPCNA petitioned to have Vos disciplined for his actions.

The opinion of the Session, which was supported by the presbytery and ultimately Synod, was that a member did not have the right to e-mail fellow members about elder qualifications. This is a horrible decision on many levels. I'll talk through a few:

It fails the Jesus test

Here is my summary of the Jesus test. Any opinion that makes Jesus a sinner is wrong. Some say drinking alcohol is sinful. Yet, Jesus says, "I come eating and drinking and you call me a glutton and a drunkard." In other words, Jesus drank alcohol. If drinking alcohol is sinful, then Jesus is no longer the perfect Son of God and unblemished lamb. We are still in our sins. It's a pretty powerful test.

So, in the Manring case, Manring was rebuked by his session for telling the congregation something that was not what the session wanted them to hear. Synod apparently ruled that a member does not have the right to e-mail the congregation something in conflict with the view of the session.

Why does that make Jesus a sinner? Jesus publicly rebuked the church leaders of his day. He called Pharisees hypocrites. If a church member is sinning if they make a public statement in disagreement with church leadership, then Jesus is a sinner. The RPCNA is now on dangerous ground. In protecting the authoritarian hierarchy of the church, they are condemning Jesus. Who is their god? Jesus or Hierarchy?

It undermines church elections

Part of philosophical underpinnings of RPCNA elections comes in the interpretation of Acts 6. The church leaders in Acts 6 were elected by the people, then ordained by the apostles. According to the RPCNA, there is a belief that church leaders should be elected from the people. They would reject any idea of prelacy - the Catholic/Episcopal belief that church leaders are appointed by church leaders.

Many Sessions fall afoul of this already in their authoritarian bent by "nominating" candidates, which puts an undue burden on members, who may take this as the very representatives of Jesus saying they approve of a candidate.

But, what is here is even scarier. The qualifications of an elder candidate are material to the election. Manring believed that the candidate's opposition to the handling of the IRPC matter was a significant consideration in whether he could be an elder. In fact, he believed that signing the petition disqualified the candidate from the office.

Given the unique understanding the RPCNA has had about elections, it is surprising that they now want to muzzle members. What would the RPCNA do if a member was convicted in a secular court for writing that a political candidate had signed a petition supporting abortion? Would they say, well, the state is your authority and you should trust God to bring about his desires? Of course not, they would go ballistic!

It's not surprising that an authoritarian, cultish church is going to spiral into prelacy. Of course, they will do it talking out of both sides of their mouths. Like a former church that paraded a candidate around the church, and then when the election came, claimed "we don't want to nominate a candidate, we want this to come from the congregation!" Complete horse crap! In fact, this church conducted the election in such a way that any congregational input was disallowed. It was a session meeting and the only time the floor was open was for nominations. So, a member wanting to bring something up (like Manring would have) would have been in contempt of court.

It destroys accountability and creates a secret society

Presbytery and Synod documents are considered open to all church members. There's a reason for this! At least at the time this was written into the RPCNA Constitution, the pastors and elders believed that light was an antidote to darkness. This was at a time when the church debated whether a member or leader could be a member of the Masonic order. The church ruled that any organization that relied on secrecy and the suppression of truth was incompatible with Christianity. Hear that again. SUPPRESSION OF THE TRUTH IS INCOMPATIBLE WITH CHRISTIANITY! So, Synod's rule that e-mailing the congregation about concerns with a candidate that are derived from the public record is somehow a rebukeable offense is creating a secret society, in contradiction to the church's own law and order. If members cannot openly speak the truth for fear of discipline, then the church has shut its ears to the truth. Why is the RPCNA so afraid of the truth? On the judgment day they are supposedly preparing their members for, every sin will be publicly exposed. Do these men truly fear God? I honestly have to say, no. They fear other men. This decision seems to come from the mentality of what the leaders might expose themselves to. In other words, if Manring is allowed to expose uncomfortable truths to the congregation, what happens if my sins are exposed? This isn't about serving God, it's about PR and damage control.

It's not surprising, then, that what seems to be the biggest takeaway post-IRPC is putting the church in control of the narrative. The Stephen Rhoda paper sought to make it a chargeable offense to go to the press. The Orlando/RPH paper was about the offense of going to public courts, and now the Manring paper creates a precedent that saying anything that could be taken as undermining the session's narrative is cause for discipline.

Manring's only "win" in this was that the session didn't follow the right procedure. It was okay to rebuke him for telling the truth, but they should have told him first before e-mailing the congregation.

Just remember, in an authoritarian system, it's okay to sacrifice a few lambs to protect the hierarchy. It's okay to send a wife back to her physically abusive husband to "protect the sanctity of marriage". It's okay when one member is told to shut up about another member's abuse to protect the public image of "Christ's Church". It's especially okay when a member is thrown under the bus to protect the power and control of the church structures.

For this reason also the wisdom of God said, ‘I will send to them prophets and apostles, and some of them they will kill and some they will persecute, so that the blood of all the prophets, shed since the foundation of the world, may be charged against this generation...' (Luke 11:49-50)